Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness,
The Smashing Pumpkins
Virgin, October 24, 1995
Track Listing: Dawn to Dusk: 1. Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness, 2. Tonight, Tonight, 3. Jellybelly, 4. Zero, 5. Here is No Why, 6. Bullet with Butterfly Wings, 7. To Forgive, 8. Fuck You (An Ode to No One), 9. Love, 10. Cupid De Locke, 11. Galapogos, 12. Muzzle, 13. Porcelina of the Vast Oceans, 14. Take Me Down.
Twilight to Starlight: 1. Where Boys Fear to Tread, 2. Bodies, 3. Thirty-three, 4. In the Arms of Sleep, 5. 1979, 6. Tales of a Scorched Earth, 7. Thru the Eyes of Ruby, 8. Stumbleine, 9. X.Y.U., 10. We Only Come Out at Night, 11. Beautiful, 12. Lily (My One and Only), 13. By Starlight, 14. Farewell and Goodnight
There is life. There is death. The rest is melancholy.
Melancholy—quite a word. A heavy word. A confining word. Pensive. Mournful. Somber.
Sadness. Melancholy’s cousin. Sadness with melancholy. A sadness that is infinite. The weight is crushing.
Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness fills the gap between life and death but not as a place to suffocate in despair. Rather, Mellon Collie is uplifting. Thoughtful, without a question. A place to feel alive. A journey of happiness.
The landscape is lonely at first. A piano melody that could be tears.
But there is no room to feel sorry or complacent. There is urgency.
“Tonight, so bright”
-from “Tonight, Tonight”
Out of the quiet, a roar. Wake up! Wake up!
“Intoxicated with the madness, I’m in love with my sadness”
And you speak to me in a crescendo.
“Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage”
-from “Bullet With Butterfly Wings”
You understand. Futile. My anger. Wasted energy. Relax. Shhhh! We take the dive and parachute to earth. Light. Peace. But not for long.
Fuck you! Admit what it is. It is love.
Where there is love, there is beauty. And angels. I could stay here forever. My heart has been pierced by Cupid’s arrow.
“We seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable”
-from “Cupid De Locke”
We travel far from our innocence to a place we will call “Galapogos.”
How lucky. The two of us. How long will it last? Where will it lead?
“As far as you take me, that’s where I believe”
-from “Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans”
A new voice. The voice of an angel? We have arrived! I must be dreaming. To be here. With you. We are halfway and pass to the twilight—
“In your heart”
-from “Take Me Down”
Unease. Where did you go?
“Love is suicide”
Try. Try. Try. You come through.
“I’ll make the effort, love can last forever”
33. 1979. Forever. No one lives forever.
“Forgotten and absorbed in the earth below”
“Farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights”
-from “Tales Of A Scorched Earth”
I do not want to leave! The cold scares me so very much.
“And faith cannot help you to escape”
-from “Through the Eyes of Ruby”
That is the way it is. I am lost. Stumbling.
“Bye bye, baby goodbye”
Don’t cry. You are beautiful. Wonderful. I will not be too far.
You’ll always be my one and only. The blue above is ours to share. Look up!
“Goodnight, always, to all that’s pure that’s in your heart”
-from “Farewell And Goodnight”
No doom and gloom. We have met, and I am better for it.